Narcissists

No. I will not drag myself down to make you feel better about yourself.

No. I will not allow your words to make me feel like I'm less than who I am.

No. You will not have the kind of power over me that tells me I'm not good enough.

Because I'm stronger than that.

Which makes me stronger than you.

 

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You can't talk to them about your feelings because they find a way to turn the tables on you. This is not someone who is truly for you. Real people will listen and try to understand where you are coming from, while helping find a solution. The narcs just listen to find loopholes to place blame on anything other than themselves.

Missing

 Of all the people

I used to be,

 

I miss the one

that you loved,

the most.

A Broken Little Girl

 

Just Perfect

Another December.

It has been 3 years of me being single.

And still have zero interest of remarriage.

No, I'm not traumatized. Not at all.

My life now is just perfect.

Me, my self. My son. My carrier.

I couldn't ask for more.

Back then on 2017.

How horrible I was at that time.

I was broken mentally & financially.

I thought it would be better If I were died.

I couldn't hold on for long time.

I'm glad I was brave enough to ask for professional help.

Journaling & meditation helped me get out from mental breakdown.

Thanks for leaving. It's time for happiness to come.

2 days left before 2021.

How tough I am now.

I have passed all the obstacles with pride.

I feel healthier both mentally & physically.

My financial is also getting better.

I'm not rich, but I'm enough, and that's all I need.

I have no debt, I have saving, I have investment.

I'm surrounded by good people.

They are all lovely friends & supportive colleagues.

I'm grateful to have a courage to walk out from people who break me down.

Unbloomed Flower

The withered flower finally blooms.

Blooming after so many tough seasons.

The beautiful flower with charming petals.

Until one day the flower is picked.

Those charming petals fall off and they are thrown away.

And the sun looked down at the flower and said,

"you are too full of everything

that make you whole to ever be loved in halves."

Where flowers bloom, so does hope.

For every flowers lose their petals every year.

And they still stand tall,

wait for better days to come.

Image courtesy of April Green

Like wildflowers,

she must allow herself to grow

in all the places people thought she never would.